The Master
The Master of None
David Rim
God's been having too much fun these days. Just one guiding test after another. However, these past few years it's been more of a forceful tug. Like being splashed with cold water to wake up.
It's up to me to find a creative method (strategy) to gently and respectfully reach out to the teachers. Wow that's a mouthful. I am supposed to be the leader, but I want none of the heat that it entails. I do not care about others jaded opinions if it's not from God then my soul will not be alerted. I have been hidden in plain sight for far too long. Feels like the end of a forty year old journey in the desert when the destination was right infront of me. If, in all my flesh can put God first then nothing can stop me. If I can muster up that small mustard seed of courage (faith,) the priest line need to obey the commands. We are all on the same team here.
When coincidences keep happenening I pray I can come off as gentle as possible and not so abrupt. But as a man what do I have to fear if I am standing firm in this world. I have all security with basic necessities food, water and shelter. I have the strength and can retire anytime I want to. Yet, I have no peace but gain the world. Things look great on the outside. But as the popular song says "God consume me from the inside out". It is all through my own grit, determination and strength I got here now. As a confident, cocky, stubborn male how can we relinquish control to the supernatural?
We are on the same team though. I am only able to assist (better) people that are on the same yoke. Because we align through spirit. It's God things with God's humour aligned. I am pissed because the devil is having his way with this world. And it needs to be controlled now. My heart breaks because I am not strong enough alone to save loved ones. Including the strength of two or more is where this final puzzle piece fits in.
Being fearless and intentional have been the reoccurring words that have made me take a step back. When I think of both these words it's actually two different scenarios that my mind will blend it into this story. Fear, is where I need to step into that is where I am being called. Into the unknown and endless possibilities. Re-enforced through poker where the opponents kept repeating "no fear" and I joined them in a silent killer fashion. Where intentions have come up in recent conversations, sermons and thoughts. I can hear the worries of others and reflect about thoughts on God peacefully. With someone who's equally yoked. Things are strangely peaceful, but the problem is being connected (fear) intentionally. As my soul cries out too deep.
I know the key to the areas people feel stuck. Somehow, there is me and then there is one that's supposed to be standing with me on this road. But I have to shine brightly. That I have to have an even stronger foundation that my well is overflowing. That is where I fall short I got nothing of value in this world. I understand a thing or two. I know a few things here and there. I am a master of none. God wants me, but really I'm saying so often why me? I am not enough to do this God.
Yes, I haven't messaged because that is exactly what I am supposed to do. Yes, there are people on my heart. It's probably for my own selfish ambition. I threw it to God again, but the pressure feels like a balloon about to burst. It's hard to see when you are being attacked and protected at the same time. I am supposed to build a roof for the children of God. I am also supposed to knock down the walls of all those who deem themselves righteous. Kind of like the person that's supposed to push you off the cliff, since you are already attached to the safety rope.
I am supposed to somehow be the answer to people's prayers. Too many coincidences before you realize it's God playing jokes. Remember, I do not feel adequate enough. Right now though, "I can feel someone praying over me". When my soul finds out. I am the master of none. I know it's you.
Let's go make disciples to the ends of the world and be salt/light.