Snifflufugus

Snifflufugus

David Rim

"How long before we fall in love?

How long before we fall in love?"

Kiss of Life - Sticky

How great is it to be alive, right side up today if you are reading this now. Do not let the phone drop on you as you micro-scroll pass this. How long before we fall in love? I just ended my longest relationship of twenty long arduous years. As each year was marked off at the calendar end. A new year with resolutions, hope and excitement began. Overtime things become worn down and we needed to put a patch on things. Is it me or is it them. Whose at fault of this unfair situation?

As time continued to tik-tok. I thought to myself constantly, "How long before we fall in love"? Is my heart okay? Was I betrayed? What now? What are my next steps from today? How long before we fall in love again. The armor that protected me along my lonesome journeys not available anymore.

Is this God's will?

I remember the first time I fell in love. We met under the magical Seattle night sky. We were watching the fireworks from the rooftops. We had many road trips to Vancouver with lots of talks with border control to let us back in we study at the University. Come! I will help you move. I will pick you up for church. Let's try this new restaurant that popped up. The sizzle started to fade over each milestone we passed. With a suddent shock. Things spiraled out of control. Things started to crack, break and we had a fall out.

Was it sin?

Should I be cursing God or the devil? Will this indescribable relationship end with no effort of healing. Was it time to let go. I ended up selling my car of twenty years a couple years ago. That proved a nonsensical headache of its own. Not a shed of tears dripped down from my nasolacrimal duct. Nor did I sniffle long for my lost.

I learned to never fully trust. At the same time I learned a new skillset. Always make sure your back is covered. With rushed events and signups. I could care less about the systems that are established of selfish greed. Now, as I make a recovery... I have a few years left that I will take care of soon. I am on a path of destruction. I will feel no less then a sniffle if they will be crushed by the weight of the light. Pride, ego nor our own strength will ever be enough for Jesus. A great reminder this week I did not rely and pray to Jesus. That my friend ended a 22 year old relationship with his vehicle which reminded me of my most recent 20 year old relationship as well.

I am sniffling not because of allergies this week, but the memories that were made from being blessed with a vehicle. But the memories to come with the vehicle of choice I picked

for this next season.