Take Lead

Take Lead

David Rim

It may be because I just rewatched all the Twlight movies. I feel like the scene where it's the Volturi vs Cullen's and friends. I am like a mix of Edward who has the power to read minds but cannot read Bellas. And Bella who has a power to shield love ones and only gets stronger for taking a step forward into that life.

I must have had preconceived notions of different individuals.

How I saw this is it's not my group that I chose to be loyal to (yet), but it doesn't prevent me from taking lead. I'm probably super impatient and anxiety ridden. My actual resources are minimal while the desires of my heart God knows. I guess this is God's testing ground for me. Which in kind I'm grateful for all. I would love to join while simultaneously detaching from the world.

Let's unravel this my thinking seems different. Over complicating something so simple. The ripple effects are true to nature and self. You can say my accuracy rate is high. I have come to peace with this quirkiness.

For this interaction I was sad being blinded by the sunlight coming through the window. That, "I am melting" thought is here. I wanted to just run. Unknown to me I made my intentions clear, so it sort of meant I need to stay true to my word. Fate could be the words I chose to speak or maybe this was God's divine orchestration. I cannot observe the person across from me. But everything feels alright no small talk, no tough conversations, just a warm meal for the cold winter afternoon.

For this I am grateful for God~