Half-Way

Half-way

David Rim

God I will bless those around me. God I am not sure wtf is going on. Nor do I have the energy to spare. Bless them if they seek you first. If not use me as a vessel for a message. God I understand how you created me or how you created this thing (world). I haven't looked too deep into reflecting on which church from revelation is the church I am at. I haven't studied to match the surrounding churches either. God you got jokes. I know it's a pattern I have not broken over the years. But I am faithful stepping forward and being healed to be even stronger. I understand the oldest has to serve the second. I understand King David was called from being a Shepard to do miracles. He was a musician that just listened to the voice in his head. That we have giants and other spiritual things amongst us always bickering, fighting like old couples do. Every ounce of my soul wants to run to the other side of town like Jonah when he heard you and ran to Nineveh anyways.

God thank you for playing jokes with me. It's a long lost memory as a child. Where I could play with friends daily with zero worries. Until they tried to grow up and evil drama started settling in. Sorry, I could not protect those who wanted to walk beside me. Nor did I have enough strength to grow out of this spiraling loop. I did muster the energy to pray to God for forgiveness on your behalf for they did not know what they do. Also, prayed early that even in Jesus name told the evil spirits they had no power over me. Over the years I can see how the spiritual blindness has an effect. Thank you for bringing Esther's (figuratively) into my life. No mention of God whatsoever but I knew this was a orchestrated divine appointment. As I continue to want to take steps in a direction may I remember it is you who's guiding this path.

God, give me courage to move forward. God, allow me to move with haste since it's already been half a month on this call. Although, trying to just exist in this world is tiring. Renew my strength and vigor. My name's got your hand written all over it. It's only going to become more miraculous. With a peace that surprises all understanding. Jesus, accept my commitment I made. Let my words be few.

I am not sure who is more selfish. Me or God? I am sorry, but I will need everyone's strengths, weaknesses and everything combined. Think I'm brought back to my first love (insert Justin Bieber - Baby melody). I'm out...