Nice or Naughty

Nice or Naughty

David Rim

*clicks faintly in the background* 

Me: mid-sentence "Oh, we have visitors".

Another person has joined the party to help assemble these care packages for the homeless. Busy because we are studying for our masters/doctorates. Busy, because we have work to do. Not busy to carve out time for God's heavenly purposes.

This is a biased narrative from me. Because it's all about me whether I trip, stumble, fall, grow and etc... I am to bring life whenever I go. We all have work. We all have things to do, but a easy way to kill a conversation is asking about work. I got instantly turned off after hearing those words. I could have taken the opportunity to switch the shift in tempo, but I was there to just work and get out. While I have a regular job it's not enough. 

It's an important position for God. It's about my daily walk with Jesus. It's a clear difference. I am asking God daily why me? I am beyond bruised, beaten and battered. God is still telling me it's okay. You are my special creation. Shine bright amongst the crowd. 

Have you been working on anything exciting recently? 

Yes, I have ambitious goals and plans. Mostly all self centered in nature. A lot of the financial goals are truly out of my reach. All the other goals are up to my own energy balance. The goals aren't for me. Only for the children that need protection. Homeless that just need an extra blanket to share. And the lost and broken that I can connect with. While the healing only comes from Jesus. I plan to walk step by step with Jesus side by side. 

Bless them. Because I have given up all control. Fearing God, truly brings me to an inner peace where people are in fear of me. While the miracles I perform are just a sign of my strength with Jesus. I am working. It's only been one year at the company. All my health related projects are nearly complete minus cost. My spiritual health has took a 180 and my body is still standing upright every morning.

I still have a long journey to go. I am wisely choosing a team to be with. I worry about the medical system, but trust in God has to keep increasing. I tell you this here now. My light will be extra bright. I pray my cup overflow to those that surround me. The projects I am slowly chipping away at is where God wants me. I am trying to reverse and heal as quick as possible. Thank you Jesus.

I'm trying to be nice, but I want to play naughty. God you know how hard it is for me to keep balanced. Please I keep throwing this to you and you throw it back at me playfully. As my coworker said she'd faint if she heard that I asked people to hang out. God it brings me back to those fateful night at the alley. "No that doesn't matter, nah I don't care about that, no it doesn't matter." I will throw this ball to you as many times I can resist. Help my ego from being too inflated. I want it all. A peace too beautiful. What should I do?