Tread Lightly

1.19.23

Tread Lightly

David Rim

My coworker mentioned he wanted to go home. I thought you do not want to work you do not have to. Later it went into small talk about how he lost his mother a few days ago. And asked if I had family in town. I said yeah I do. Then it all started making better sense.

He was missing home like back in the home country. Because that's where his mother lives. I know he did not mean harm and I know I am private person.  It sounded like he was giving me some life wisdom. I look like a kid probably to him based on my skin and bones. We are probably closer in age and he has zero info of my background. Like why you directing your words like you are older then me and know the lonely path I am on. Kind of like kid I have been on this road before tell me something new. Had to grow up without a father which had a ripple effect. Had to fight demons wanting to send anything in my way of finding peace/freedom six feet under. Had to fight against the sinful nature each waking minute.

Asking God, "Why? Why can't I take their lives? Why are they being mean to me? Can I trust these people? I just want to be left alone. I cannot process this. Why is my father not here next to me? Why am I not allowed to fight back? Why can't I release my anger on them? Why?"

Why am I sharpening my talents and keeping them buried in fear? Only God would understand. Thanks be to God. Thanks to my video games I could escape my problems. Until they caught back up to me and it's time to face my demons.

Treaded lightly, my words could be a double-edged sword.