Cancelled...

PC: Toby (RIP Oct. 2023) on the Left (Big Bro), Mocha on the Right (Little Bro).

Cancelled in Your Eyes

David Rim

Words could be a double edged sword. You can manifest to the universe all the positivity or feel the negativity in double. Similar, to the feels from gambling. Where winning 3x, 10x, 100x ignites our adrenaline. This temporary dopamine hit is new. This feeling of being a winner.

If you know you know.

However, easy come comes with easy go. Without strict discipline and strategy all of these blessings can easily turn a new leaf. No warnings attached.

Life's been chill. Slowly stepping out to touch some grass. Enough of my time reserved for relationships to where my video game farming gets neglected. Been cheating on my diet with daily Haggen-Dazs or free boost mobile membership daily doughnut. Just recently did some blood work. My A1C is 5.6 which is higher then my 5.4 from 3 months earlier. Which is fine and normal. Because the one hidden number has been decreasing steadily. As my body continues to heal. I grow even more impatient with the progress.

I probably have a larger plank in my eyes then the next person. I make mistakes all the time and double down on them even more. Ever heard of the martingale strategy? Anyway, life makes it difficult to get stuff out of my eyes when people keep playing unfair by throwing dirt continually into my eye.

It might bring them joy if I am seeping weakness or despair. Like if we dig deeper we can hit the oil of emotional distress.

Matthew 7:5

My coworker, "would hate for you to be a target." My thoughts thinking "Satan had his hand on my neck for awhile now and has only gotten close." Eminem lyrics* "I don't have to worry I got people that can legally pop you..."

Not much for drama or enforcing of power. God has my back that's all I need. Even if I walk clueless in naivete.