Depressing Noise

3.30.23

Depressing Noise

David Rim

My spirits is weak or dampened. I mentioned that I do not value my life that highly. The words rolled off my tongue easily only coming off more depressing then anything.

It's hard to put into words because the actions are done in the background. Three months has passed now where my health went from bad to better. However, depending on diet, exercise, sleep quality, stress, and other factors my mentality for the day could be thin.

I do not have fear of death because Jesus gots my back. I'm slowly regaining my mental each day. I guess where my lack of enthusiasm lies is where am I supposed to be in life. The things my soul would want to do is counter to what this world wants us to do.

Michael and Lily were asked in an OTV video what they like about each other.

Michael likes how they can banter back and forth. Toast says kind of like humour. And Michael says yeah kinda like a friend, which made me think of person A and our small two minute banter. In hindsight we have similar humour. Not sure if they picked up on that in our small greeting.

Slowly coming around to notice things I like. I would be happy if I could spend some quality time with these individuals. I want to share some stories over some tea. I can help fill in some pot holes of our life encounters. On a spiritual note I believe God is bringing these angels to help guard and guide me like an anime. This in itself makes me want to find out if it's true. Makes me keep taking that blind step forward.

But my convictions, intuition or deep feeling in my gut usually is correct. Sometimes it's not the answer I want to hear. Hey man that's okay though. Good things are coming~