The Audible

The Audible

David Rim

It was a hallows month that ended up being extremely deadly.

A week before I started my heater. I decided I needed to bless the coworkers I always gave a hard time. I appreciated the time I got to spend with them through the highs and lows with my health. I was glad they stayed patient with me. I was ready as ever as I saw the damage of my words and actions that didn't line up. I got my title. I needed to act the part. I did that backwards too. I needed Jesus even more.

The month ended up being hell week for me. What do I do now I'm living for paycheck to paycheck trying to escape this since my diabetic journey is starting to succeed. The house is a mess because we did painting into flooring that took months to finish.

I also had to job change forcibly. Right as I was ready to climb to the top of the ladder. What a shock I've seen before, but less damaging to the already wounded (me). My dog always chilled with me when I was home, but I was busy navigating the shitty timing for remodel and shitty timing for me having to be uprooted from my situations as I was starting to regain confidence in consistency. Things just were not going my way.

What saddens me is my dog wanted me, my attention, in his last moments wanted that one last hug, cuddles, scratches and pets. But I had pushed him slightly away because life got in my way.

Too sweet for my sweet tooth. Today.

Glad to get the open invite for Panda Express. I laugh internally because there was a high chance I know workers still there or I opened the location. And from memory I believe it's next to Chipotle which would make me even more curious. However, God pulled an audible we ate somewhere else today. A last minute addition that turned out to be even sweeter. Felt a little mismatched there because it looked like they were on a double date with us thrown in. Sorry for the awkward intrusion and accepting us into the party.

Y'all are too kind and accommodating. Sorry I am not a person of many words in larger groups. Sorry I just cannot eat anything and everything. Still learning how to portion control and have a keen eye on dietary restrictions. I cannot put myself in any danger after hearing horror stories of people around me.

Too introverted to make good convos but always enjoying my time in the presence of others. I forgot that the fried pork was fried lol at least I neglected the sauce a little to save me from carbs and sugar. I noticed that you're a lefty and our mannerisms are similar. I can't mention much more...but this has been on my list of must do's written months ago. Then I ran into some old friends randomly that I've been meaning to make room to at least say hello. Now it's already been five years since they had a child crazy how much time already passed.

I feel like I'd be a bother if I interrupt someone that looks like they are on a mission. Because I apply how I feel when I get interrupted in a time of high focus. But expression isn't me. Poker faced is. I was just reminded that females depth perception is amazing. Which makes me confident on my reads thinking there's no way you would not notice. Even if you turned and noticed we both acknowledge that fact we know. I never mentioned you could say hi. Like the subtle movement you made and I noticed. How weird am I being now?

Minutes after I did the same subconscious subtle movement as another person passed by me. I did the same double take like do I have the right person. Should I stop them to just say hi. This is very similar to when I was wearing their hat (the double look).

I am generally okay. I also don't mind. I lost track of the story. Pardon me as

I dive into the deep end.