Spending my Life

Are we at a stand still? Just staring at the phone waiting for your greetings. Not sure what's wrong with me my soul must be crazy. Thirty never felt so good. God's been kind to me. Even when I'm so narrowly focused with a slight nudge I get to zoom out in remembrance.

I will know right away. That it's okay to greet me. No, I am not mad or angry. High chance that my heads up in the clouds day dreaming. No, I cannot see you my visions not that perfect. All that I know is grouped into pattern recognition like a robot. From watching too many videos to not studying the word enough. I come to the temporary end of my wrestling practice with God.

Right now it may not be the perfect person. But my choice will probably be whoever the first person shows up. In the meanwhile I am pushing to clear the debt Jesus paid for me and all of us.